Hello friends,

I havent been on here for awhile but I guess im back to write a post on who knows what. Lately my mind is swarming with so much and things have been layed heavy on my heart. So much has been going on but yet ive really seen God at work in some areas...God is so amazing. Lately ive found myself down and wodnering why Gods allowing certain things in my life and at times ive just wanted to give up but then im reminded that God does care and he has a purpose and that hes working in me and through me everyday. Ive found myself broken and weeping so much lately and just crying out to Christ...I cant do nething without him..noone can right? But for some reason many of us find outselves tryin to do it alone and pushing away God and the help of those hes placed in our lives. Why is that? Why are we so afraid to allow those around us to come in a help or why do we just try to live for us and push everything else away? Thats the last thing I wanna do but yet i get caught up in that...I wanna be who Christ has called me to be. Sorry this post is all over but bare with me. I find it so hard at times tryin to trust God and surrender all I am to him when so many things seem to go on and u feel everything is falling apart. All of u who haev felt this just stay strong and remember Chris suffered all for us. Lately thigns haev been goin on with soem friends that are just heart wrenching and even more so cause they dont know Christ so they feel there is no meaning...I guess theres the difference between us and them...I struggle but carry on because sometimes only because of HIM and they dont have that. Laltey Christ has just been working through me with my friends at school..some of them and its amazing. A friend told me last night that I amazed her because even tho ive been struggling so much that i seem to be hangin in strong and relying on my faith and trusting in God and she said she stopped believing as a kidbecause of everything that happened. See even in the midst of struggles when u dont even know it u can be a witness...Guys no matter what goes on in our lives we must stay strong and not be afraid to open up and let others in and most of all rely on God we cant do this alone. Sometimes i feel i cant even get through the day but alone i know i couldnt so why do we even try...So I guess lately im just tryin to let go and let God its hard..thigns are hard but I need to do this... Lets live for him and lets not give in..lets be a witness for the whole world to see.   NEVER FORGET YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! Im praying for you all...God bless

~Britt~

A favorite of mine...

 I was just listening to this song and wanted to share it with you. I really like it.

It is called the Art of Breaking my thousand foot krutch:

                                         Art Of Breaking:

Everytime I call you on the phone

I listen to it ring but noones home

I cant explain the energy that you give me when im left here alone

And everytime I pass you on the street

You wont even turn and look at me

I would never even thought that things could go this far but please believe me:

I'll pick you up, wont let you fall

I'll build your trust adn it wont hurt at all, your only drug will let you down

Im through now, so take me and blow me away

Chorus: When I feel numb I'll let you know, I wont become what I was before,

You cannot kill whats not your creation,

this is the Art of Breaking

I think I might just lose my mind

If I haev to watch this one more time

I cant explain how many times ive stayed for you when you were on my mind

Noone ever said that it was easy

so come out of the cold adn stop your bleeding

I never would haev thought that things could go this far, but please believe me

Chorus: up top

Are you gunna run away, and leave me here alone?

Are you gunna run away, and leave me here?

Joy in troublesome times..

I dont really know where all I will go in this entry but bear with me please. It seems lately many are struggling and are confused with what they are to feel about things. I am one of those people, when I struggle with so much I come to the confusion of..how do I feel ...how do I go about this. Im sure many of you, not just me struggle with the cover up solution....always hiding whats inside and feeling its for the best and that its not ok to not be ok right? I come to that feeling many times. The thing is it is ok ...Christ promised trials and struggles and what not the thing is also we just dont have to go about it the way the rest of the world seems to. I mean just cause we are Christians though doesnt mean we wont get down sometimes...im coming to accept that but it does mean that in the midst of it all we can still have joy. You know some people at school have wondered how i act so..CRAZY and seemingly happy all the time....the truth is well its ME lol and soemtimes it is a cover up. Like I said up there many of us struggle with the need to hide. But many times my reason for awlays being like that is... that I always see a reason to smile a reason to laugh a reason to be happy. As christians we are confronted with that reason everyday...there is no need to always be down no matter what the situation because Christ is at work and thats enough to lift up spirits right? I seem to find myself at times so gloomy and depressed and one of those times being recently but those times may occur but then we must remember we are not alone and can still have joy. Joy is possible in difficult situations... but also just know no matter what u are going through..Christ is there walking with u and wants to help..he will NEVER leave you. And also know its ok to talk to friends..close ones about whats going on,its ok to admitt we cant do it alone cause the truth is we CANT! We need God ...we need those around us to help us. Christ has even placed certain ppl in our lives to help us through those times we dont think we can manage ...im sure u all can think of someone right now as I said that. The thought I wanna leave you witt is...do u have that joy in your heart? If not why? Are u caught up in selfishness? Have u wandered from Christ and come to believe he really doesnt care and it leaves u depressed and completely without joy? Or have u just never accepted his gift of salvation? Whatever the reason...I pray one day you will find the joy Christ has offered.God bless

~Britt~

HaPpY BiRtHdAy

"It's called..getting old"