Hello friends,

I havent been on here for awhile but I guess im back to write a post on who knows what. Lately my mind is swarming with so much and things have been layed heavy on my heart. So much has been going on but yet ive really seen God at work in some areas...God is so amazing. Lately ive found myself down and wodnering why Gods allowing certain things in my life and at times ive just wanted to give up but then im reminded that God does care and he has a purpose and that hes working in me and through me everyday. Ive found myself broken and weeping so much lately and just crying out to Christ...I cant do nething without him..noone can right? But for some reason many of us find outselves tryin to do it alone and pushing away God and the help of those hes placed in our lives. Why is that? Why are we so afraid to allow those around us to come in a help or why do we just try to live for us and push everything else away? Thats the last thing I wanna do but yet i get caught up in that...I wanna be who Christ has called me to be. Sorry this post is all over but bare with me. I find it so hard at times tryin to trust God and surrender all I am to him when so many things seem to go on and u feel everything is falling apart. All of u who haev felt this just stay strong and remember Chris suffered all for us. Lately thigns haev been goin on with soem friends that are just heart wrenching and even more so cause they dont know Christ so they feel there is no meaning...I guess theres the difference between us and them...I struggle but carry on because sometimes only because of HIM and they dont have that. Laltey Christ has just been working through me with my friends at school..some of them and its amazing. A friend told me last night that I amazed her because even tho ive been struggling so much that i seem to be hangin in strong and relying on my faith and trusting in God and she said she stopped believing as a kidbecause of everything that happened. See even in the midst of struggles when u dont even know it u can be a witness...Guys no matter what goes on in our lives we must stay strong and not be afraid to open up and let others in and most of all rely on God we cant do this alone. Sometimes i feel i cant even get through the day but alone i know i couldnt so why do we even try...So I guess lately im just tryin to let go and let God its hard..thigns are hard but I need to do this... Lets live for him and lets not give in..lets be a witness for the whole world to see.   NEVER FORGET YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! Im praying for you all...God bless

~Britt~